Never Was

from Oh Canada! EP by Chris Dodgen

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I played this in one sitting at about 2:#0 in the morning after working on some other recordings that day. The chorus came out exactly as it appears in the final recording, not that the difficulty was high since the entire song consists of two chords.

This marks the first time I think I did a nice job of talking about personal things without being too hamfisted lyrically. This track makes me sad when I hear it, which means I probably did something right. The lyrics are a series of vignettes of things that happened when I was a child.

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When I close my eyes
I remember scraped knees
A football helmet
And your brother said I was a thief

Sidewalk
My blood under the sun
And my eyes are wet with rage

A lie
I scream
Back down crying
No one home to comfort my pain

Where's the boy I used to be?

Winter snow
And Ice cold
creeping through the door
The last gift opened
And I ask if there are any more

Backhand
My Face
Swelling hot blaze
And my bare feet hit the snow

Door slams
I cry
Ashamed, I hide
By the planter all alone

Where's the boy I used to be?

Searing meat
It fills the air
From the stove

She says she doesn't want anymore
And so it goes

Spoon in
Choking
Is she breathing?
Through my tears her face is blurred

I watch
Wide-eyed
While she almost dies
And I say not a single word

Where's the boy I used to be?

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from Oh Canada! EP, released July 4, 2008

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Chris Dodgen Dallas, Texas

I make music.

Some is happy, some is sad.

All of it is me.

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